I have been 30yrs old for exactly one week now! I feel absolutely WONDERFUL!!!  A lot of peole I know were so down about turning 30, but what is the other alternative??? I’m sure that they wouldn’t like that so just live , laugh and love the life you are in!!!!! I pray that I live to see my grandchildren’s children….I have turned over a new leaf and left all that MESS  (except my marriage and the birth of my children) that happened in my twenties  behind me .  YEAH THIRTY!!!!

Well hello there! I  was convinced to start blogging again so I kept my end of the bargain and here I am! …..I title this I’m Back with question marks, cause honestly I don’t know how long this is gonna last , but we shall see!!!!! SHOUT OUT TO  Racheal Issah at Emory she said she reads this blog on Saturday nites on her down time at work ….WHAT UP!!! …to anyone else out  there who maybe reading abut my life, thanks and please leave comment……..HOLLA!

This morning, I was thinking as I often do while driving. I started think about my mom, I’m always thinking about her but this morning  she was just on my mind. I think it’s because mother’s day is coming up. Anyway I really, really, really , really, really, really, miss her ! I feel like she was taken from me too soon. she was my best friend. I miss everything about her, her voice, her smile, her touch, her comforting words, our talks, her encouragement. I feel ROBBED!!!!!!!!!. I know she is in heaven cause she was saved and she is watching over her two grandchildren up there with her. But I want them all here with me! Ya, I know that’s selfish, but that’s just how I fell right now! I have all these feeling in me and I don’t know weather to cry or yell. I gotta keep my cool for the child that God so graciosuoly blessed me with and I don’t want to cause any tension in my home. That’s the good thing about blogging,I can let it all out. 

I LOVE YOU, MOMMY!!!!

so I got back some results from my Dr. today and I am trying really hard not to get depressed. What happened to the days when I didn’t have to worry about anything? If I keep asking why I will just go into a state of depression and I will be going backwards if I do that, so I have to do what I do best and that’s keep my head up even though I really don’t want too. But I am done with self pity parties!!!!!!