In all that I’ve been through, I realized that it was all for my good. It didn’t feel like it but when I finally got it I knew that I would share my experiences with someone who may feel like they have no purpose in life. What did I learn? I learned that my purpose is bigger than my pain. I’ve learned how to trust God, how to let go, how to be obedient and how to forgive.  I think the hardest lesson was learning how to let go and forgive. I recently let go of some anger I have been holding on to for 6 years. About a year ago I emailed a family member and told her I had forgiven her for what she did. She wasn’t even aware that I was angry at her, but when I told her she realized what she did, and apologized. I held a grudge with her for 3 years. I thought that was apart of my unhappiness besides everything else that had already happened in my life. But for some reason I still felt so heavy. I realized I was still angry at my daughters father for what he did or should I say ,what he didn’t do. It was not the easiest thing for me, but I know that obedience pleases God. When I decided to forgive him, I felt sooooo much lighter. I was stressing my self out holding a grudge and being angry. what good was that doing anybody? I wasn’t hurting him by not forgiving him and I was blocking blessings that I could have had a long time ago.   So if you are someone who is angry for what ever reason at someone who has betrayed you, disappointed you, or whatever it may be. Don’t waste your energy. you are just stressing your self out. We are to blessed to be stressed,right! and think about what you have done unpleasing to Jesus, he still forgives you and throws it in the sea of forgetfulness.  you may be in a place where you are like” whatever” and being angry is a comfortable place for you right now,  I was in that place. but I pray that you will get to a point were you are just sick and tired of being sick and tired. I hope it doesn’t take as long as it took me for you to get it. But better late than never.It took me awhile to get it, but I got it, so I’m good. for now. just hope it doesn’t take that long with the next lesson God wants to teach me